Still I can’t taste the peanut butter

So what should I do?

Whatever

Cuma keledai yang jatuh ke lubang yang sama dua kali

Well maybe that means I’m even more stupid than a donkey. But  I don’t really care

Though I know I’m doing something stupid. Though I know I’m just repeating my mistake. Though I know this may hurt me again in the end

I don’t care. at all

Cause I know I’m doing this because I want to. I choose to do this. And I won’t regret it

Cause at this moment, this is what I really wanted

The Pussycat Dolls – Happily Never After

“I dont think I want this anymore”
As she drops the ring to the floor
She says to herself “You’ve left before
This time you will stay gone, thats for sure”

And he shattered something as
She dragged her suitcase down the path
To the driveway
She had never gone that far
Normally this would be
The time that she
Would let him talk her out of leaving
But this time, without crying
As she got into her car
She said

No..
Happily never after
That just aint for me Because finally
I know, I deserve better, after all
I’ll never let another teardrop fall
As she drove away she starts to smile
Realized she hadn’t for a while
No destination, she drove for miles
Wonderin’ why she stayed in such denial

Laughing about the way he shattered something as
She dragged her suitcase down the path
To the driveway
She had never gone that far
Normally this would be
The time that she
Would let him talk her out of leaving
But this time, without crying
As she got into her car
She said

No..
Happily never after
That just aint for me Because finally
I know, I deserve better, after all
I’ll never let another teardrop fall

I’m done , I’m done
Said I’m so done
So done, I’m done, I’m done
I’m free, I’m free, I’m free
Free to be me

She inhales an air she’d never breathed before
The air of no drama, no more
She said

No..
Happily never after
That just aint for me Because finally
I know, I deserve better, after all
I’ll never let another teardrop fall
[3x]

..another teardrop fall

I do deserve better. far better

From now on, we’re gonna be two strangers

Not the kind of end I wanted, but

Maybe this is the best

07.03.2010 :)

I really love this day

kenapa?

karena today’s my 16th birthday ♥

jadi inget taun lalu aku sama apin yang sama sama ulang tahun hari ini dikerjain anak anak Ichetos. didiemin dan dikacangin seharian. tapi malemnya pas perayaan maulid, kita disuruh nonton Topek dkk latian buat lomba akustikan dan ternyata lagu yang dimaenin adalah Happy Birthday dan terus Nia masuk membawa kue ulang tahun aaa I love that moment ♥

taun ini saya merayakan ulang tahun saya dengan jadi panitia donor darah hahaha

awalnya udah takut aja bakal dikerjain *gila geer abis gue* tapi ternyata ga terjadi apa apa tuh. cuma disuruh mahan beli bolpen 2 dus *yang awalnya saya kira usaha untuk ngerjain saya. lah nyuruhnya pagi pagi buta untung ada 1 toko yang buka -__- * tapi selaen itu ga ada apa apa tuh hahaha

btw, DONOR DARAH 2010 SATU CINTA SATU DUNIA SUKSES BESAAAR DDD dan kita juga berhasil membuat rekor peserta donor darah terbanyak dalam cara donor darah yang diselnggerakan SMA dua tahun berturut turut mamen DD

tahun ini kita berhasil mendapatkan 139 pendaftar dan 90 kantong darah

KEREN ABIS ♥

tapi pas menjelang akhir akhir acara, tiba tiba naluri isengnya anak anak muncul. jadilah saya digotong Pipit, Oliv, Previasari, Arvy, Sera, sama Yudhis

dan saya diceburin =__=

untuk pertama kalinya saya merasakan diceburin ke kolam teratai

ternyata asik loh )

TAPI JANGAN TERUS SAYA DICEBURIN LAGI YA BESOK

makasih ya teman teman sudah membuat ultah saya kali ini sangat unforgettable D

special thanks for :

Betzy Nella Redinoviria, for text me a happy birthday message at 00.00

Chlara Nikke Darakay, fot text me 16 different happy birthday message, so that it match my age

Pipit, Oliv, Previasari, Arvy, Sera, sama Yudhis, yang sudah “berbaik hati” menceburkan saya ke kolam teratai

Andini Noviana, for making me this post

R.A Cintya Paramastri, for staying up til 1 am last night just to accompany me, and be the second person that congratulate me

my family, for celebrating my birthday earlier last night

juga makasih banyak buat semua yang udah inget dan mau mengucapkan selamat ulang tahun ke aku, baik via sms, fb, twitter, ym, maupun langsung

Thanks it means a lot. I really appreciate it

I know I’ve done a lot of things wrong in these 16 years I live, and I apologize

I promise from this time on I’ll try to be more mature and less chilidsh

I’ll try to stop being a moody person

I’ll try to stop scold every people

I’ll try to stop putting an angry face, and I’ll try to replace it with a smiling happy face

I’ll try to stop complaining and bothering you guys with my boring whimper

I’ll try to stop annoy you guys

I promise

Btw, thanks banget buat seseorang yang sudah sukses merusak mood saya siang ini. makasih ya. anda selalu bisa mengontrol mood saya sesuka hati anda. though this time, it don’t bother me that much, dan saya ga lama lama badmoodnya. well, sesuai katanya ajeng

“Don’t let one dick screw your birthday dash”

And that’s exactly what I’m gonna do

Stop it, please

tolong ya, ayah, mama, semua keluargaku tercinta

dia bukan siapa siapaku

dan aku sekarang itu sedang berusaha buat ga peduli sama orang itu

jadi tolong, berhenti gangguin aku

tolong, berhenti menyebut nama dia

tolong, berhenti menyangka dia ada hubungan dengan saya

please, stop it

it hurts